This whole week is just like a nightmare
although i dunno when i will wake up from this nightmare
but i know i am learning from it..there is still some sweetness inside this nightmare
but i still hope i wont have this kind of nightmare anymore,i know its going to happen again
they still dun trust me
they say they do
but its all lies..it will happen again
and my heart will get stab again
i know...well..
i guess its all numb already,no more feelings for anything
esp to this incident
been through so much
i know somethings
something that i am glad and proud of
is him
through all this
i know he will always be with me,stand by me..
all that he have done for me is craved onto my heart
so no matter how sad i am now,there is still sweetness inside of me
i believe it can cover up all the bitterness,i will be happy again...
i dunno how to express my love n thanks properly,pls forgive me for that..
i can feel the pain in my heart until now..whenever i look at my parents
am i really that bad inside their hearts? i dunno..it seems that i am really that bad..
my masks seems to get stronger now..even though i a soo damn upset
i am able to smile and laugh
sometimes i really wonder,am i treating myself as human..
i tried not to be upset..cos i dun wan him to be upsets too...
i tried to hide myself..my true feelings
in the end..i am like avoiding him
i am so sorry..i really feel like going somewhere, where this troubles will be gone
just sit there quietly, with only him n me
why wont they just trust me
why do i have to cry here..
will u still chose to live when u are going to cry to sleep every night
maybe it will be better if someone is with u.
i overwork myself
lungs got infected
got 2 days mc to rest
n no PE for one week
there goes my lungs
i feel like dying..
i really do..
