Imma crazy alien , who falls in love with a alien piggy.
studying in a alien school , loving a alien.
i sing alien songs , eat alien foods.
dont deserve any human comments.
so damn bored...posting again the same things..force by dad to do some paper work so bye....
- 4:58 PM
haha
this uncle damn funny..playing hula hoop on the blue big ball somemore at there turn turn turn like dancing ballet.hahahahaha..taken at my void deck ...lol...at least this make me laugh..THANK YOU UNCLE :)
- 4:45 PM
me me me me me me me me me .....
so bored!!!!!!!!
- 2:18 PM
almost bored to hell...very sianx...somebody sms me....hiax...feel like going somewhere...
18 September 2009 - 8:08 PM
love
damn sian..tmr maybe not going for meeting. first reason cos i dun feel like going. second reason i got class n lesson to attend in the morning cos exam coming. mum force me to go. my mum again.hiax. today never go help cos got tuition.not free.heard that lot of ppl never go today.haix. i never care so much also.zz.i
guess my fake love is turning into true love.die.
what if i really fall deeply in love with him?ppl also dun like me. better control...hiax...so painful to control own feelings de lor..it not gab tat i like guys..dun anyhow guess.OR I THROW U INTO THE POND..HA HA. tmr will be a fun day. got water activity.dun worry we not going swimming.haha.today in school damn slack de lor.Tuesday going to perform on stage the ukulele thing.hope can go well.first to perform somemore.fate~anyway i actually brought a book as my dairy..i writing dairy!!!my god...it is to keep track of time and the things i do.later got visitor coming my house n overnight n to sleep in my room!!!i dun even knoe her. wth..nvm
i love that two dogs..haha..i love puppies:) cute creatures.right?
that's should be all for today:)
17 September 2009 - 10:29 PM
feeling better
after toking to shi fu on msn n wee keong, i feel much better...thanks huh...i guess i need to face the truth...i cant hide..i need to be strong..cannot take it also must take it...for everyone sake.i will survive..i guess..i will give it a try once more..just once more..i will try..i dun wan to disappoint anyone..esp the sec 1s...hmmm..i think i am in love...lol.anyway.it's late liao..everyone sleep early...i hope tmr everything will be better....even though i still very moody... :]
- 8:34 PM
so stress
i guess it is all my fault... i admit i am in the wrong for not informing wei xuan i didn't send him the proposal.. but i didn't know i am bossy during the pioneering... i know yan zhi got much more experience than me but he also never say that he can change my plan into a better one...if i was bossy i won even let u guys go buy drinks. my parents hate me going to scouts...i trying my best be a good aspl while arguing with my parents everyday.all u guys know was to blame me for this and that.i am trying very hard to change without any support from u guys...why not try doing wat i am doing now?...
when i say my prob out,u didn't solve mine but others...u say u dun understand what i am toking about..did u even try to understand???i am so tired...i dun want to do anythings liao you guys enjoyed shooting me anyway...yesterday plc...yes...i am angry...with Felicia..yes... when i stress up i cant do anything..yes...i was wrong from the start...yes..i am too bossy...yes...in the whole plc..i am the worse...yes..i deserves no respect...i am sorry guys...i m not a good leader...not a good aspl....sorry that i am not to your standard as a aspl...sorry guys
i got no defences...i really dun know who to turn to..i need a solution to this..i cant continue like this...i will need to learn....learn how to swallow all this...my heart is so pain when u guys were saying about me...from that moment onwards i feel that everything i have done for scouts just vanished..do u know how i feel when u all say that.all together?. i cant concentrate in class anymore n final year exam is coming...what have i done...why...why..why is it always like that..i just cant continue anymore..i m trying so hard to keep myself in scouts...YET this is all i get...is this fate?is this my fate?
my parents keep nagging..asking why am i always so busy in scouts? why must i be the one going everyday? i am not going tmr..i feel so stress now... i feel like watching the sun set and sun rise...n slowly forget everything...but i know i still need to return into that environment...for the first time in my life..i am going to say scouts is hell to me now...i hate the way it is now..i hate it!!!...
i m so confuse... i just cant think positively anymore... what is happening... to me...
14 September 2009 - 9:39 PM
the camp
i feel the stress of being a PL...first day of the camp i cannot take it and break down n all 4 PL "fall"...in the end we still stand up and continue where we have started..2nd day also so stress..break down even more infront of sir,mr foo,miss kang everyone expect for our members..learn a lot during the camp.. just got to try my best in the future lor. wild monkey.rats.ants are all our friends in the camp:]those who go will understand.wa haha. somehow like a wake up camp for me..a PL is not easy to be..dun even mention ASPL...i survive the camp..i understand what's real bonding..the strength that all PL must share..the pain all members have gone through together with us..that strength dun come easy..when you suffer..just remember u are not alone:)my patrol won the best patrol award...my patrol consist of dawn.junhui,wanting,shierly,yuuchi,wenwei.hmmm.quite a blur patrol :P....lol...i sprain my leg on the 2nd day but i keep quiet and bear with the pain...wa...very pain lor...nvm...worth it anyway..haha..i actually never regret joining scouts.lol. zi qian best camper.can you believe it?! lol...haha.congratz to him.lol.today was saying that he become more man.lol.damn funny. going to fight for studies liao:) wont be blogging too much lar...:) today played water bomb while cleaning scouts room.damn crazy de lor.lol.lol.most wet one i think is teck wei and ci rong.lol.in the end they play liao all run away never clean de place.wth.miss kang,gabriel,fuming & me clean up the mess.lol.smacking their butts tmr!!!! wa haha:)after that saw felicia come back.she come back to school for what?extra lor>>>hahahahaha...jkjk.actually still quite extra.hahhaha...*evil*....
still waiting for that him of mine~~~haix
02 September 2009 - 5:59 PM
ADULT LECTURE
i dun know what is happening to me .I only knw this kind of feeling is hurting and painful. It makes me feel like giving up in everything. It makes me hate this world when i wanna to love it. I guess i seriously needs a break.Or else i will break. This is so tiring.Today was suppose to have PLC but wei xuan say he cannot make it and we use phone call to plan the meeting. I dun know what to do.Just feel like keeping my mouth shut,don feel like doing anything at all.It seems like my whole system have break down..somebody save me???My self esteem damn low.Feel like shit always.how?how?how? Is it that people made me feel like shit or really treat me as shit.I started wondering.What's exactly happening to me..i dun know.I think i need some adult lecture.DUN FEEL like going to this Saturday meeting...suddenly scare of everything...sir already know i cried on that meeting.I am speechless about it.And i realise i got a serious problem controlling my true feelings.As in i hide my real feeling.HIDED THAT REAL ME.Got so moody these days~somebody cheer me please~~~~~i think also no use.i will give you that fake smile again.die.thinking negatively now~*sigh* OH YA! Dun know what subject combination to take also.any tips peeps? really dun know what to choose.seniors~give a helping hand leh xD
Teck Wei still own me candy! Sweets! he better give it to me by tmr or i kill him.Eating candies can keep me awake n short happiness.hoho.today after school went to the place we put baka woods to see yan zhi qian n heng hui count poles.In charge by jun shan.I do nothing as usual.I dun wanna help them.Dun know why.after that i pei heng hui wait for bus and we chatted a lot.find her interesting.lol. heard that she and her BF break. Hope they will 'patch' back soon.they were really some great couples:) want to thanks roshini,Yong rong,heng Hui n sherlyn for their encouragements.you guys helped a lot. I hope my this problem can be solve soon.POSITIVE THINKING WILL BE ON THE WAY I HOPE:)
