my reply 4 mathfailure:
[[he really broke your heart didn't he? it's lyke he shot an arrow into your heart that stabs so deeply in your poor heart.. and it's bleeding non-stop.. the arrow is stuck so deeply inside.. jux that one arrow.. jux one... can make your heart bleed so long.. even though yew tried to clean the wound.. it jux can't be cleared away by yew.. but yew know who could and yew have to wait and might not get the person to clear it for yew.. yew so much better then me.. i got two stabs at the same tyme.. yew know how much it hurts? (: i jux onli wan to lyke hym secretly til the backstabbers ruin everything... the impression of me in hym must be hell... *sobs*i know i hab change from the past.. i will never be the past me anymore.. never lyke before.. jux because of that one guy and the backstabbers.. i totally changed.. i know i had not beeen so hyper for the past months... my life had really change a lot.. none other crushes had made me feel lyke this before.. onli this and onli one.. i wish one dae he would also kana backstab by them and his dear crush hurt hym deeply at the similar tyme.. then he will feel wat i am feeling now.. love isn't a wonderful thing when yew jux got hurt by hym.. better give up bahhs... it is better to give it up before yew really get deeply hurt by hym. gettin hurt by hym isn't a nice feeling... it is worst than hell..]] (by mathfailture)
yes,i am hurt...he won care i knw...i did not get one arrow..is more than 1.........getting hurt is not nice i knw...but love is just like that...love isn't a wonderful thing when you get hurt..but when u are hurt u learn at least sumthing hopefully...he is my first crush and yet i love him so deeply...my wound has not heal yet...so pain...
i need to bear with it lorz....
coz i cant 4get him now...
but i knw one day he will go one...
so must my love 4 him if he did not accept it...
{he shot an arrow into your heart that stabs so deeply in your poor heart.. and it's bleeding non-stop.. the arrow is stuck so deeply inside.. jux that one arrow.. jux one... can make your heart bleed so long.. even though yew tried to clean the wound.. it jux can't be cleared away by yew.. but yew know who could and yew have to wait and might not get the person to clear it for yew..}
this part is quite true huh....
when love did not have an happy ending...
u dont need to curse him lah....
u wanted him to suffer like u have
but think.....
that will not make him love you...
love is not about getting revenge...ok?
just wish him the best lorz.....
knwing and loving him need fate de....
when u, yourself is hurt......
it is painful i knw
he may feel nothing abt it....
but deep inside yourself.....
u will hate yourself 4 loving him..........
some ppl worse....
hate them after they reject them...
feel like wanted to kill them...
these ppl don understand wat is love...
wish u all the best 4 your future love bah....
:)
sigh....life is like that...those who don knw my history will not knw wat the hell i writing...u are making a decision....thinking of the advantages and disadvantagesor more of "wat happen if i do this or that"....please i beg u....make the decision of wat your heart tell you....don care if i will get hurt a not....it doesnt matter.....wat your heart tells u is always rite....changing it wont be any better....follow your heart...u cant cheat yourself 4 long....i don want anything now...i just want the answer....my heart just want the answer...it's hurting me....no matter if the answer from u is a good one or a bad one...i am just gonna stand up from there.....that's why i tell u to make the decision and don care how i feel...i want a true answer from u.....that's all...or to u it is too much?learn to stand at where u fall.......my first love may not have a happy ending....but i can make a happy one in my dreams and is enough...at least i learn sumthing while getting hurt....more of this will cum in life i knw....just be strong....so just be strong and make that decision i have been waiting for....it's good 4 us to make it clear.....hanging it down there will onli make it worse...make your decision....everything will be alright...trust me....no matter wat is your decision....i will still choose to believe....." Love Is In The Air...."remember...don keep me waiting...
my hands full of blue black
sigh...so pain..
struggle like hell....
they bully me..arrhh..
sigh....
of coz i am paiseh lah....
so noob u knw a not.....
no intention to go up loh.....
that idoit....no matter wat i do hor....
he give no reponse.....sianz....
i can live without him..i will show u one day...
exam...damn stress...sigh.....
hmmm..
after month still no reply......
how long u need arh?
nevermind...i don care liao.....
yeah...it's so hard 4 me to say that i don like you....
but i knw i must now....even though my heart don feel this way...
and it don want me to do this....
should i do this?????? i don knw....
after exam first...
i am not gonna to wait 4 u after school anymore...should i?
i am tired...loving you...so tired..can u do sumthing....just something??no matter how i water this plant...flowers will never appear...no matter how much sunlight i give...the leaves is never green...no matter how i tok to it...it give no reponse...this is wat u telling me...rite?
thanks 4 the chance...hmmm....thanks...i think it's better to make a choice urself...than to listen to others....i just hate my life...sick of everything....why are u like that should i just give up on you ?
do
u knw how hurt am i when i knw that?i am confuse...i don knw which way to go...who can i ask?don u understand?i just follow the one who guide me...i don feel happy when i knw it is fake...i felt more hurt than ever...i knw i am nothing...to you...my life is so messy...why? i felt so useless.. i kept thinking wat is wrong....how to solve it...i have no one to refer to...do u knw i am crying and crying...i kept my feelings in my heart...i don wan any one to knw...i am the one to be blame..i am the bad one..i am nothing..it is my fault..
and she cum and tell me u like some one esle....it's ok..i can cover all this myself...one person...alone...i don feel relieve when i knw it is not true... i am hurt....very hurt....wat can i say..yes i am still hurt...so wat..u don care! i don belong here...do i?
i feel very tire loving you...u gave no reply to my love...do you? but i don mind...i really don...coz i knw love is like that 4 me...yeah..let's keep waiting.....
i understand and see everything..i felt at least better...that storm in my heart is not that big now...but the whole world is still wet because of this storm........
i am still waiting 4 my sky to turn blue....
i am still waiting 4 your reply.....
[[Beautifully stated.... As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back. ]]
hi everyone...feeling good huh...haha...finish literature exam..still okok lah...hjmmm nothing much i can say too...just to tell sum one that i don like to jump around..all the best to thhose who are having exam...good luck!
yeah..life is so short...why struggle through it...need to struggle also must struggle happily de...rite...kan kai le! mus t be happy lah..no matter wat happen..must cheer up! i want to be my normal self again!!!! even though my normal self is not in love one...i still can be happy...haha...think positive..yeah! i knw very funny lah hor...once my posts was like so sad and emo then suddenly like that...diaoz.... :) :) :) :) :) ;) :) :)
watever the reason is...how ever bad is it...we all are hurt...wat is the point...im sorry if i hurt you..i am very hurt myself...u knw my history..wat kind of friend i have in class...rite?i hope everything will be fine soon...no matter wat..i knw u are confuse yourself...i cant blame u...maybe we will never ever be the same again...there's a scar inside u and my heart that cannot be erase.. that scar will remind us the friendship that we must treasure if we ever patch up if not that will be a memory of wonderful times we had that will never come back again....i don knw...i tried to tok to you...but was just stab back by a sword...i did not mean i lost a friend but wat happen between us let me felt like i lose a friend... "THE GREATEST GLORY IS NOT IN NEVER FALLING,BUT IN STANDIND UP EVERYTIME WE FALL...."I hope after we fall...we can stand up together in glory..can we?
why??? can i get over it? yes i can but how? it is not that i am jealous or wat...but once u are with her...u will disappear in 1 min or even ignore me....why...she really mean so much to you arhhh? fine..u go with her..i don mind you throw me a side but make sure she treat u nicely lah...we started not toking to each other liao...why? too guilty to face each other? why am i always hurt...first this...then that...the hurting i got is unlimited? is that wat u all were thinking? yes i am smiling and laughing in school...but inside my heart..it's totally nothing liao...how many scar are there??? should i ever trust friends again..wat the point of trusting your friends,cherish and treasure them when in the end u still lose them no matter wat? why? should we continue to be like that? i didn't knw it can be so hurting losing a friend that has been there 4 you like years...whenever i am sad i call you..your voice calm me down...yes i am crying..so? who cares? who can i call now..who.....seem like my life is never good...ppl ask me why am i sad?
wat can i say?
"i lose my only best friend?"
"how u lose it?didn't u treasure her?
"yes i did but i still lose her..."
"oh! u are such a noob!"
i knw i'm a noob...i knw...i am stupid...i knw...i knw being with me is totally boring....i am a monster...a ugly creature on earth...for our own good..we should end everthing...rite? since it is already like this...u go your own way..i go my own...will that be good? u go with your jiamin..i am not going to say anything anymore..that's your choice i can see....will i ever have my heart mend again? i hope u the best with jia min......i hope u the best....
"a life full of obstacles make you learn how to stand up after a great fall and have confidence.." sherlyn said to me....yes..now i understand...face it then...must learn how to stand up and face it...i don blame anyone 4 wat has happen now...i don blame jia min..no i don...i don blame anyone...my life is like that...hmmm.still need to go on..rite?
NOTHING TO SAY...NOTHING MUCH I CAN SAY...I HOPE U KNW WAT U ARE DOING...u don knw wat the time when to be w th her...seriously...///i htae you...waht aer yuo donig? do you konw how hrut i am?nveer mnid..who crae? do you unedrsatnd waht i worte? u dont becuase u don unedrsatnd me....correct?
i don knw wat to do roshini..i don knw wat to do...i really don knw...u just change...that's all i can say...people changed and move on...they don change and move back...it's ok that u change..into the more mature kind i think...it is not that u avoid ppl..just thAT u think there nothing much we can say..we can tok about..u did change...u move on with this kind of attitude...it's ok with me...people do change... people need to change..i realise u have change into those mature kind i think....jia min is mature and u are going too also...she suit u more as a friend..i think...i don mean that i am not mature..just that i don suit u much as a friend and i cant to a good one..i think...don worry about me..even if i want to hurt myself...i make sure this time no one will ever knw...so don care too much about me...care for others of your old friends...maybe can get better this way...we can still be friends...but not like last time anymore...we spend most of the time together last time after school..but don worry i will soon be use to the life where there is no roshini with me...u have been a great friend really...i will soon be use to the life where i have no shoulder to cry... on...or u will be the one helping me?we are
///rite?i will soon be use to the life without him too....but i know that hurting myself wont do any good...so u go on with your life...go on loving her...i cant blame u 4 that....it's your choice..i dun like to force people and love cant be force..but remember...my love 4 you is still the same...u make me smile...whenever i see you...///
wow..today got 5 free period sia...but is fill with things to do loh...first must finish chinese compo then i need to finish D&T drawing...yesterday got 6 free period...in the morning gor mass run...as i run i heard sum one shouting..i look up at the building to the 4th floor and saw teck wei..sigh...and they went on and call for kayle....i run more faster..haahaa not funny at all loh...///
I AM REALLY SICK....TO THINK OF U AND CANT SEE U...
I FIND LIFE MEANINGLESS...WHY?
hmmm...i don knw wat to say...speechless again...mess up again...
i say watever...in the end..i am still hurt...sigh...heck care liao...u do wat u want..wif we continue like that...I WILL DIE..I WILL
yes..u can treat ppl equally..but i believe human wanted more than equal and fair...once u said that..... i believe ppl will start to get u 4 attention and they will start to want u!!! she had been tagging me to recently...i knw why....she will try to get u from me...i knw..and i am not going to fight with her 4 you...coz i believe that u will made the right choice...u did not made me cry lah...is just that i am sick and i sound like i am crying....i am NOT crying....ok???....she will stick to you...i knw that....i am not sticking to you nor toking to you...u knw why...i tried to call u..u did not pick up...it is ok....i don want to fight if sumbody with sumbody...it is your choice ti treat ppl fair..i can say it is a good start...but never a good ending...cos she will start fighting for u and i am not in the mood of fighting...if there's is a need..............i will break the relationship.......i don want any more dispute will ppl..i had enough in my class....u should understand very well how hurt i am when my class turn against me....and u knw i did not want to snatch any friend from lea...same goes to u...i don want to snatch u away from her...i did not want to hurt anyone... including her.....i hope u understand....and i did not knw my problem in class will come to scout too...if i really break relationship with u..i don knw who to trust any more...i don knw who i can trust anymore....i have tried be4 treating ppl equally...my reponse was very "good" indeed.. good until i felt like killing myself...i am a friend of yours and i should be at your side.but this time i am reALly scare that once i do this again i will lose more friends...i have already lose a lot of things...i think u can just 4gets me and leave me alone..u can go with her everyday and 4get me...i don mind...it's your choice...
nothing much to post...running nose..fever...sick loh....sian lah...sigh...sumting is wrong with roshini....don knw wat to tell her also...hmmm...so many days never see him loh...to me is like years had past.lol huh.....homework also haven do yet mah...lan duo to do also....hahah...fu ming say i lovesick lah..not sick...but i really is sick now...lol....don knw who is he thinking also....ya...i admit i am lovesick..but i a sick too...haha...but my feeling this few days still okok lah..just that i miss school , him and roshini....is there any cure for lovesick???? ahaha...if there is...i think the world will change like siao....lol....at home also so boring..new house so small loh...nevermind..gota place to live can liao..my sister also damn boring...go and disturb me when i am toking to roshini...lol...so bad ho...this sat got scout...dun knw want to bo happy or sad..sigh...life is like that...rite?Labels: u are everything to me...
