life is so exciting.
i got a life full of surprises.
so interesting..
got to see things in another point of view
and i find things is getting so interesting
so challenging so stunning
tired of city life
want to see the sun rise
want to go see flower blooms
want to go see the sun sets
want to go see the big wide ocean
want to go to a place full of sunflowers
with butterflies flying all around
want to see those dove fly across the sky
want to let the wind blow into my face
let the sand cover my legs
leaving footprints behind when walking on the beach
watch the sea waves washes it away
STARS
watching the sky full of stars
on a peaceful night
remembering those i loved
bringing back the pain into my heart
crying under those beautiful stars
hoping they can shine through my heart
and heal me by the sight of them
but how can i find them
and heal myself
when i am blind by sadness?
It wasn't easy to dream with tears flowing
Addicted to sweet dreams, i am looking for more
Fish: "Add a touch of nature to your page with these hungry little fish. Watch them as they follow your mouse hoping you will feed them by clicking the surface of the water."
very long never update le..
having a blog like so meaningless..
thinking of closing it down..
hiax..this year de national song so high pitch..
just being random ==
as the sun rises
i expect something better today
with constant reminders of work
i was able to numb myself
but i cant help but feel bad
when something bad like that happens
I promise myself not to cry
but i still do every night
i was happier
but i fall again
it knows how to cut deeper now
its trying on me
it kills me to know u r down
all becos of me
i am sorry
i dunno how i got this upsets
maybe cos i love u too much
i dunno..
i will be waiting for the next sun rise
hoping that it will be a better day
it will be..
right?
This whole week is just like a nightmare
although i dunno when i will wake up from this nightmare
but i know i am learning from it..there is still some sweetness inside this nightmare
but i still hope i wont have this kind of nightmare anymore,i know its going to happen again
they still dun trust me
they say they do
but its all lies..it will happen again
and my heart will get stab again
i know...well..
i guess its all numb already,no more feelings for anything
esp to this incident
been through so much
i know somethings
something that i am glad and proud of
is him
through all this
i know he will always be with me,stand by me..
all that he have done for me is craved onto my heart
so no matter how sad i am now,there is still sweetness inside of me
i believe it can cover up all the bitterness,i will be happy again...
i dunno how to express my love n thanks properly,pls forgive me for that..
i can feel the pain in my heart until now..whenever i look at my parents
am i really that bad inside their hearts? i dunno..it seems that i am really that bad..
my masks seems to get stronger now..even though i a soo damn upset
i am able to smile and laugh
sometimes i really wonder,am i treating myself as human..
i tried not to be upset..cos i dun wan him to be upsets too...
i tried to hide myself..my true feelings
in the end..i am like avoiding him
i am so sorry..i really feel like going somewhere, where this troubles will be gone
just sit there quietly, with only him n me
why wont they just trust me
why do i have to cry here..
will u still chose to live when u are going to cry to sleep every night
maybe it will be better if someone is with u.
i overwork myself
lungs got infected
got 2 days mc to rest
n no PE for one week
there goes my lungs
i feel like dying..
i really do..
