wa..stop asking me...i wont say a thing cos we are only friends ^^
hiax...so sian..nw at my uncles house..lucky got bring com or eelse i will rot to death..so long never update my blog le...nah i just updated yesteday..MY UNCLES IS STILL SO FUNNY..hahahaha
everyday is a brand new day...today i stand with a different status...happily..i shall just stay happy with him.....forget others...^^ dun ask me who..cos i wont say..:)
A PERFECTLY GOOD HEART
Why would you wanna breakA perfectly good heart
Why would he wanna take
Our love and tear it all apart
Now, why would he wanna make
The very first scar
Why would he wanna break
A perfectly good heart
Maybe I should've seen the sign
Should've read the writing on the wall
And realize by the distance in your eyes
That I would be the one to fall
No matter what you sayI still can't believe
That you would walk away
It don't make sense to me
Why would you wanna break
A perfectly good heart
Why would he wanna take
Our love and tear it all apart
Now, why would he wanna make
The very first scar
Why would he wanna break
A perfectly good heart
It's not unbroken anymore
How do I get it back the way it was before?
Why would You wanna break
A perfectly good heart
Why would he wanna take
Our love and tear it all apart
Now, why would he wanna make
The very first scar
Why would he wanna break
A perfectly good heart
Why would you wanna break
A perfectly good heart
Why would he wanna take
Our love and tear it all apart
Now, why would he wanna make
The very first scar
Why would he wanna break
A perfectly good heart
dunno starting from when i started to suspected everyone. Every single one around me. i dunno why..things is getting hard for me at home
i seldom laugh cos of smses. but he make it happened again and again. i feel very light and free for the first time. even though we dont know each other for long. talking to him is just like talking to a old friend of mine ;)
looking for a english name or myself and my sister. my chinese name meaning is beautiful-shining peace...wow..just got to know it...lol
wa...long time no update le..was very stress b4 the field dAY ..drop a few tears jiu okays liao XD....lol..field day was like...what the hell..so damn muddy...*phew*...luckily it is over..hoho..
tonight still got to work..sian...dun need watch tv liao..hiaxz ....
i came to understand myself better these days..
what i want and so on..
i dun need to follow people style or
do what people say
i just go according to my views
still i will take in comments
but not rubbish of course..
tired....even the sky is crying everyday! sleep less than 3 hours everyday...tired...tired...tired
that was very encouraging. those who kena hit by me in the scouts room so sorry but NO sorry for LOG TAKE WAY cos he CUT MY ART PIECE!!!! nah...it's over anyway..lol...today raining for more than 4 hours ...damn shiok de lor. so cooling. i love raining days. even though today went for tuition whole body wet.haha.thanks for tagging and encouraging me:) feel a lot better!! i think i already fully recover:) thanks guys!
today was very tiring... after going to school to help out on field day i went home and waited for yong rong and shifu to come. they brought mac donald le! eat liao than jiu slack. planned sat meeting. then also dunno how jiu fall asleep liao. getting ready for field day..so tiring..haha
i realise god had given me more than i wanted. just that i dunno i, i didnt realise that everything is just by my side. i wont crAVED for more now. and i will just let go some things that are not suppose to be mine.it was like a dream for the past one week. whether will it have a beauitful ending a not ..is up to me. i have decided to have a wonderful ending. after screaming like hell in the scouts room today, i feel much better and decided to move on. without him. yeah. i 'm still fine:) even though i know i still dunno a lot things about him but i wont care anymore. i will stay strong AND continue my life happily. oh yeah!
i know if i let him go...he WILL never come back...
but i have got no choice....
did not really eat well this few days..
see those food like e'er
until today eat pizza with roshini
was feeling better from all the crying...
tmr will be going to school
will avoid anything that got to do with him
i want to leave him ALONE...
i used to watch TV a lot...
recently after that incident
whatever nice show i also never watch lehs
just feel like shutting myself out from this world...
one side of me is telling me to forget him
the other side tell me to hold on
which side should i follow ?
someone pls tell me
i am confuse n hurt
why confuse?
the time we have been together..
everything that happens seem weird...
why hurt?
nah..you know why...
i know i wont be able to forget
but just need to let go...
and heal
nah...think tooo mucchhh....dun care liao. hate crying to sleep...hmmmm..let go let go....
nvm...just forget it k? it's not easy..dunno why he just throw me into the fire like that. i still dunno why...i still dunno....
heart break..
it was painful to know the truth...i hope i know what is he thinking....but i don't...my heart all numb once again.. so painful..tears just flow...i think i will be closing down my blog.....no use writing anymore...cant find any good reason that i can continue writing here...
the pain is unbearable.....i really miss him....i really do.....too bad...it's the truth...
he has no feelings for me...how i hope it was just a lie...how i hope he is lying to me..
how i hope i am with him now..how i hope i will not be writing this here..how i hope he can read my heart...how i hope i was stronger...
why must i fall again..
from this height.....
so bored...was doing math than very sian jiu on com and play.3 ++ got tuition. later going to meet him and pass him something i guess. scouts going to malaysia not perth anymore. cos it is not $1700+..is $2300++...many of us cant pay that much so change to malaysia where more ppl can go:)
i dunno what's happening. i read her blog and i go confuse. what are you tAlking about. i really dun understand what's going on. everything that happen between you and me i am always the last to know. why? cos you prefer to tell that someone first b4 telling me. and it is always too late for me to react so wat do you expect. i say b4, you live your own life dun come ove and cross my line...
me and wen
wei
mr foo body, me and wen
wei. dunno how
felicia take picture one =.=
the troupe
the scouts!
wendy teaching us cheers
yeah. we're so cool:) haha
yesterday went for campfire. it's been so long that i become so high. felicia even crazier..everyone was like staring at her..why is this girl screaming like that! haha. she scream until she no voice liao. i still have my voice cos i not so crazy. H1N1 have disturbed lots of ours activities. when i am in sec 1 it is more fun lor. so many campfire cancelled or postponed.arrrggghhh!!! so not fair. lazy to update the photos le..haha...so tired sia. whole body aching like old ah ma....anyway still updated a few photos:)
thanks for the help, or else i really dunno where is the place to take the bus =.= haha. thanks a lotss :)
gotta to look on the positive side..i can answer my own why why why liao:) today he accompany me to tuition. i feel good of cos...hmmm...kan yi bu zhou yi bu ba....i feel okay. i slowing understands my feelings for him.
tmr got scouts meeting...haix...at night have campfire...cannot watch tv with my sister liao..sad...haha..nvm...i so long never scouts liao...but i haven miss it yet..haha
why? why must this happen to me again? why? why must heart always break into pieces. why? why must my love always be throw into the drain? why? why must my heart be broken like that...tired...i am very tired....why must i fall from so high...haix..but i think i knw what to do. this kind of things cant be force. will try to know him more....hope he will know why am i doing this...i hope i can survive through this...
i change my blogskin. i change my songs. songs of love....:) I GUESS i know what my heart is telling me...
谁改变了我的世界
没有方向没有日夜
我看着天这一刻在想你
是否会对我一样思念
你曾说我们有一个梦
等到那天我们来实现
我望着天在心中默默念
下一秒你出现在眼前
想念的心装满的都是你
我的钢琴弹奏的都是你
我的日记写满的都是你的名
才发现又另一个黎明
你曾说我们有一个梦
等到那天我们来实现
我望着天在心中默默念
下一秒你出现在眼前
想念的心装满的都是你
我的钢琴弹奏的都是你
我的日记写满的都是你的名
才发现又另一个黎明
我的日记写满的都是你的名
才发现又另一个黎明
这是我对你爱的累积
i went to his blog and read his past. but at least he is not so stupid like me . i think i should say we are equally stupid. haha. doing so much for one yet what we got is nothing but pain. it just happen so fast. this time it's true.i dunnno whether if i have the right to love somebody cos i doubt so. i hate to be locked out from the world just like how my mum lock me at home. yet i locked myself in too. i seldom speak my heart out to somone like him. not even my good friends. i dunno whether if i am too fast in trusting others. maybe that was my weakness. from the start until now, things had faded. i thought it would be ending soon. then i realise not. a new one will always come. it is the matter of am i going to hold on to it a not. very saddening.
today is my favourtie weather. it is raining!!! i love raining day. having hot milo during rainy day is my hobby.haha. post again some others days. bb
since you guys dun know what i mean i will elaborate more. i just met him. and...i am falling for him? understand? lol
hmmmm.i have different feelings for him. not like how i feel about others. esp guys. he was just different, i am just afraid i will get hurt but at least we started out as friends. not like colour he don even give a damn. he was my first, my feelings for him at that time was like wow...after that i gave up on him..the feelings of love is all gone.heart damn pain de~ but i thought i feel it again.today. feelings are growing for him.how? he is leaving yuan ching....wont be able to see him liao. even though we haven really know each other that well...but..you know..feelings this kind of things is like that de lor....hiax..he is friendly enough to accept me as a friend when we both are totally strangers...chatting with him is like chatting with a long lost friend i dunno why. you guys always any how match mix me with some other guys but he is the one who really make me feel something...dun ask me what thing is thAT something....hahatoday damn ps de lor. accidently stamp a chop on the library paper...then the auntie screeam...what the hell...lol. so sorry for her. hehe. anyway felicia just tell me about him and her again.haix. dunno what is wrong la. i dun care liao.
he was staring at me today. so what does that mean? heard he got a gf. so what does thAT mean?i feel so weird..it has been almost 2 years that i have that kind of feelings...hmm...now than i realise i have been meeting him quite a lot of times...too many times and it don seem like it's coincidence anymore. but i know we have no fate to go any further..fate...ren le ba...hiax..
today went to school for nothing. thought miss kang say is today in the end is tmr...tmr still need to go downl e...hiax..later 2.30 got tuition...hmmm...too boring at home.sian
i headed to the library yesterday and borrow one thick book. nice animal story really miss those days where i read. tmr still need to go to school..haix
