I changed my aim , my target.
I want 2 start over new.Term and condition do apply.I will try to follow.More of a formal dreams and goal that i want to achive.I am not quitting scouts,i will continue to do my duty, my job.
I will not cry for scouts anymore.i will not so hyperactive in scouts anymore.
But i will do my job still.
My goal for scouts is : i will do whatever i need to do. that's it.nevermind if they dont respect me,i dun need their respect anymore.i will let them climb over my head.but if they fall,i am not gona pity them.I have my limit.since they cross it and leave me with no choice....that's what i will do.my reasons for doing this is not to disappoint those who have been on my side for so long.I dont want them to waste their effort.i will draw the red line between scouts and friends very clearly.i will remember those who have step on me,those who loved me,those who gave me the strength to go on,those who make me cry...i will remember.
today is be yourself day.nothing much lar.wear home clothes go to school and slacked whole day.sit with felicia in hall,she keep screaming my ear damn pain.crazy woman...haix..scare of her liao.afterthat me n christine keep avoiding her.lol.look at mr chia play ball.wa...he damn pro de lor..haha.those who watch will know what i mean.
Go to lakeside with teck wei afterschool.cant go in cos wear home clothes.then dash in eat liao run home.do some reflecting and post.hmmm.going to bath now..haven bath yet:p lol. smelly~
even though i am very down this few days, i know who are my true real friends. those who are willing to stand by me,those who are real scouter.
even though i have given up, i still still do my job but not like how i will.
even though i treated wrong ppl as real friends and they..no.. SHE backstabbed me..i wont care and i should have know she will do this to me..[i have enough of her].
i am sorry that i wont be so active..
i wan to thanks heng hui,sherlyn and yan zhi for encouraging to go on & zi qian who tell me to kill myself..zzz...
feel like closing down this blog
no one tag
no one read
no one care
blog for what
i wonder...one day if i die
will my friends care?
will you care?
hmmm...life is so bored
need somebody by my side..
cheer me up
&
calm me down...
scouts also so bored...
almost drive me crazy...
sorry to say...
i have given up long ago...
i don know who will bring me back...
just hope that it wont take too long...
HE PROMISED
...he promised he'd nvr hurt me
he promised he'd be around.
he promised 2 tell me everyting,
he promised not 2 let me down.
he promised i was his only,
he promised no one else.
he promised he'd see her lesser,
he promised this would be better.
he promised tat he didnt love her,
he promised he'd be back.
he promised us an always,
he promised not 2 lack.
he promised all these things,
yet none of them true.
he promised never-ending,
yet i got was blue.
He lied...
mood:*PHEW*
reason:yesterday was a scary day in scout HQ
hmmm...went to yi tao house to get his donation draw tickets cos he never give! and then went to jurong point to bank in money. then we headed to bishan in misskang bf car,haha.something funny happened inside.lol.then reach HQ liao.thing started to get tense up.hoho..hmmm.nevermind. until 6++ then go home with wee keong...8++then reach home.haha.thank for sending me home:]
