why??? can i get over it? yes i can but how? it is not that i am jealous or wat...but once u are with her...u will disappear in 1 min or even ignore me....why...she really mean so much to you arhhh? fine..u go with her..i don mind you throw me a side but make sure she treat u nicely lah...we started not toking to each other liao...why? too guilty to face each other? why am i always hurt...first this...then that...the hurting i got is unlimited? is that wat u all were thinking? yes i am smiling and laughing in school...but inside my heart..it's totally nothing liao...how many scar are there??? should i ever trust friends again..wat the point of trusting your friends,cherish and treasure them when in the end u still lose them no matter wat? why? should we continue to be like that? i didn't knw it can be so hurting losing a friend that has been there 4 you like years...whenever i am sad i call you..your voice calm me down...yes i am crying..so? who cares? who can i call now..who.....seem like my life is never good...ppl ask me why am i sad?
wat can i say?
"i lose my only best friend?"
"how u lose it?didn't u treasure her?
"yes i did but i still lose her..."
"oh! u are such a noob!"
i knw i'm a noob...i knw...i am stupid...i knw...i knw being with me is totally boring....i am a monster...a ugly creature on earth...for our own good..we should end everthing...rite? since it is already like this...u go your own way..i go my own...will that be good? u go with your jiamin..i am not going to say anything anymore..that's your choice i can see....will i ever have my heart mend again? i hope u the best with jia min......i hope u the best....
"a life full of obstacles make you learn how to stand up after a great fall and have confidence.." sherlyn said to me....yes..now i understand...face it then...must learn how to stand up and face it...i don blame anyone 4 wat has happen now...i don blame jia min..no i don...i don blame anyone...my life is like that...hmmm.still need to go on..rite?
